Doctor of Philosophy
Education, Educational Leadership & Policy Studies
Date of Defense
Dr. Matthew Davis
Dr. Thomasina Hassler
Dr. Carl Hoagland
Dr. Thomas Hoerr
As a Black woman in the field of education, I feel as if I am not valued or seen as an equal member of the institution. This has been extremely evident as I served as an Instructional Coach in a predominately Black public school district where the teachers and administrators were predominately White. Race has come to the forefront as a prominent barrier for effective Instructional Coaching across the color line. In this dissertation, I reflect on my experiences as an Instructional Coach and analyze them through the lens of Critical Race Theory using autoethnography as a research method. My findings dive deeper into the invisibility and hypervisibility of being a lonely Black woman in the field of education as I serve as a pseudo supervisor. This is exhibited in three cornerstone counterstories- Duties, Copies, and Bathrooms: The Role of the Professional Mammy, Slumber Parties with the Principal, and Fighting for Stagnant Mobility: Working Twice as hard for Half as Much. Melissa Harris-Perry’s Crooked Room Theory and Joy DeGruy’s Post Traumatic Slave Syndrome are used to support the notion of changing one’s self to fit into a societal structure that does not welcome Black women. Like many Black women in professional settings, I have had to shift and cope to survive in an environment that does not recognize Black people as colleagues and uphold the Racial Contract. This dissertation exposes my raw thoughts and feelings as I was professionally discriminated against due to race and gender. I share some self-care suggestions and find solace among family and friends as I navigate my crooked room.
Alfred, JaNae', "“…But You Don’t Know Me Like the Sun; You’ve Never Seen My Horizon” (Bennett, Cole, Segal, and Warner, 2015, Track 3): Exploring the Invisibility of a Hyper-Visible Black Woman in Education" (2018). Dissertations. 785.
Educational Leadership Commons, Elementary and Middle and Secondary Education Administration Commons, Elementary Education Commons, Other Educational Administration and Supervision Commons, Urban Education Commons